Fim

O momento mais infeliz da minha vida, o maior erro cometido, com consequências para um animalzinho que eu amava acima de qualquer coisa neste mundo, o meu amor, a minha companheira de alegrias e tristezas, aquela que nunca me abandonava e esperava sempre. Pacientemente.

Aquilo que eu tanto quis... Tirá-la da rua e ir viver com a minha Bolotinha.

Estraguei tudo e já nada faz sentido. Nem este maldito blog.

O meu passado acaba aqui.

Sem a Bolota nada faz muito sentido.

Nunca mais.

Fim.

Depois de toda a eurofia, enfim que chega a tristeza... Tanto que eu perdi...

(tudo o que sinto não tem imagem, não poderia ter sequer, se o que sinto é ausência, vazio, impotência, tristeza dilacerante de um momento estúpido, em que me perdi e em que a perdi... Música que me recorda o que me fez perder-me para o mundo e perdê-la. Para relembrar e nunca esquecer. Nunca mais ser tão estúpida)

the wind is ruthless
the trees shake angry fingers at the sky
the people hunch their shoulders
hold their collars over their earsand run by
it's a cold rain
it's a hard rain
like the kind that you find in songs
i guess that makes me the jerk with the heartache
here to sing you about how i've been done wrong

and I am sitting, watching
out the window of the coffee shop
and I am waiting, waiting
waiting for it to let up
I am rocking like a cradle
warming my hands with the cup in between
I am leaning over the table
holding my face over the steam

and before it gets so cold
that the rain turns to snow
there's just a couple things
I'd like to know

like how could you do nothing
and say, i'm doing my best
how could you take almost everything
and then come back for the rest
how could you beg me to stay,
reach out your hands and plead
and then pack up your eyes and run away
as soon as I agreed

it just all slips
away so slowly
you don't even notice till you've lost a lot
I've been like one of those zombies
in vegas
pouring quarters into a slot
and now I'm tired
and I am broke
and I feel stupid and I feel used
and I'm at the end of my little rope
and I am swinging back and forth
about you

before it gets so cold
that the rain turns to snow
there's just a couple things
I'd like to know

like how could you do nothing
and say, I'm doing my best
how could you take almost everything
and then come back for the rest
how could you beg me to stay,
reach out your hands and plead
and then pack up your eyes and run away
as soon as I agreed


Ani di Franco - Done Wrong